Roots N Blues N BBQness and Cold Stone

Today was fun but long. Brittany and I went along with Brittany's sweetmate Lauren to the Roots N Blues N BBQ festival down town. Then we went to Cold Stone. The 4th graders were pretty good today. Today is one of my better days for the most part. One of the kids was talking about a relative they had lost recently and that really hit way to close to home. I can feel myself beginning to shut down and withdraw into myself. I'm trying to avoid it, but it's hard not to do the closer to the anniversary of his death I get which is on the 14th. I'll just keep praying for the strength and guidance toget through this. I suppose that's all for now.

why I don't like October

I really don't like October. That may have something to do with the fact that my Grandpa died on October 14, 2006. It doesn't seem like it should be two years already. Most days I'm able to move on with no problems. However, when October hits I'm angry, sad, and hurt all over again. The grief feels like it's crushing me all over again. I hope it's a bit easier this year. I will ask God for guidance and love.

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